Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Who is Ms. Chae REALLY?

This is just a quick entry to introduce everyone to Ms. Chae. NO, I don't have a personality disorder, I just like to think that she is my sarcastic, angry side. She becomes the 'character' I hide behind when I'm in a mood and need to release my feelings.

Ms. Chae says what's on her mind, when it's appropriate. She, like I, ALWAYS keep it real. Why lie about things, why hide things, why sugar-coat the truth? Not my style or hers. If that's what someone wants from me, I'll send them straight to Dunkin' Donuts, where they can get all the sugar-coating they want. Ms. Chae doesn't have time for games, nonsense or drama of any kind. I allow her to take over when I really can't be bothered with ignorance or immaturity.

One of my good friends, Eddy, gave me the nickname, Chae. I become 'Chae' when I have to sing or speak in front of a group of people (whether I know them or not) I was extremely shy as a child and that shyness remains with me, even though people doubt that b/c they don't see it. The reason no one sees that is because I hide behind my character, who tends to be strong when I can't or when the shyness starts to creep up on me. My shyness has prevented me from pursuing a singing career, approaching influential people and even from properly promoting my jewelry. I recently decided that, that HAD to stop. So, for now, Ms. Chae does what I can't bring myself to do at times, although one would never know that w/out my having told you.

Now, DON'T take that to mean that I am weak in anyway! Weak, no, shy, yes or maybe just quiet to begin with. But just because I'm quiet, that doesn't ever mean that I won't speak up. I probably just won't be as sarcastic as Ms. Chae would. Ms. Chae must be a long lost relative of Ms. Karma b/c I feel sorry for people who cross either one.....Hey, I'm just sayin'.....

You know you have another side to you too. We all do in some form or fashion, I think we just have to tap into it. I HAD to find an outlet for my negative emotions. I think we all should. Perhaps not in the form of an alter ego, some people develop hobbies. Whatever works for you. Just don't get extreme! You know how Tyler Perry has Madea? Well, Cheryl has Ms. watch out!

Go With Your Gut!!

Did you ever have a feeling about something and were right on the money about it? Happened to me recently. I won't drop instances or names b/c this is MY blog and it's about ME not anyone else, haha! This is about my feelings and I'm SURE SOMEONE can relate to this!

So, I got this funny feeling and just knew something wasn't correct. Things just weren't falling into place like they had in the weeks prior. I then began to think that I should change a part of my personality, perhaps not be so willing to do things for others as quickly as I have in the past. I think that I'm a pretty open, easy going person. I don't judge anyone b/c I didn't put anyone on this Earth, no one is perfect and everyone is human. I'm a good listener, always try to be there for others before myself (NOT always a good thing I've learned). I don't spread rumors or gossip and I keep personal business to myself (whether it's my business or someone else's), and I don't take much personally (as in...if we aren't close, then you can't hurt me) Sometimes that isn't good though, because people tend to take advantage of that whether they realize it or not. Now, once that happens I start to wonder what went wrong. What did I do? What could I have done better or not at all?

Then, of course, I come to my senses, and realize that I did everything I was capable of to the best of my ability and still remained true to myself. People are unhappy for a myriad of reasons. Ms. Chae (who you'll meet later, I'm sure) is DYING to say something, but that part of me (lol no, I don't have any personality disorders, haha) can be very sarcastic and says whatever is on her mind. Let's just say, I chalk this up to life experience. I've learned my lesson. Remember, there's a lesson in every life experience. Don't get upset or angry, or even take it personally. Look for the lesson, learn from it and move on!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Well, I guess this is my first entry in my blog. Usually I have much to say or a lot on my mind and need to put it down on paper, but for some reason, nothing comes to mind. Nothing wise, nothing funny, not even anything random. I guess that just means it's a good day huh?

Then I guess I'll leave it at that and go on with my day. Have a good one and thanks for playing! See ya next time! Maybe I'll introduce you all to Ms. Chae, haha....